I’ve made it to week three! Woohoo! I can’t believe I haven’t given up yet! It really must be working or else I’ve gone completely stark raving mad. The latter is highly possible!
This week I am ‘Recovering a sense of Power’. It deals with the emotions that might crop up on our path to creative enlightenment. The nasty ones like shame and anger. It also teaches us about ‘synchronicity’. This simply means that we are provided with what we need. I decided I wanted a fold-up writing table but couldn’t afford one, then I found a laptop tray for a price I could afford. This is synchronicity. Read more →
Being back to work is very strange. Black trousers, white shirt, black shoes. I haven’t worn anything like that in over 5 years! It’s a very weird feeling, it almost feels wrong. It is definitely different from my usual jeans or jeggings and flowy tops.
The nerves from the interview came back bright and early Tuesday morning as I got ready for work. I started to panic a little, it’s what I do best. I didn’t know what I was letting myself in for. I couldn’t help all the thoughts running through my head. What if i’d forgotten how to work a deli? What if I couldn’t remember my training? What if i was bad? What if I couldn’t do it? What if I wasn’t good enough? If there was a negative what if, it was in my head, driving me nuts! Read more →
So long story short, I have been out of work for the last 5 years. There are several reasons for this. First of all, I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety and had to give up work because I couldn’t leave my house. It was terrifying. Who knew that my seemingly innocent four walls were actually prison bars in disguise. Sneaky.
Slowly, I began to recover and there were no jobs to be had, so eventually I stopped looking. Then in March 2014 I discovered I was pregnant and let’s face it, illegal or not, no one wants to hire someone who will be gone on maternity in a few months time! The search was abandoned. Read more →